09/11/17 - Raleigh, North Carolina

My heart is full... This has been the absolute best week of my entire mission. Last Sunday I fasted that we would be blessed with one more baptism before I went home. Not knowing who in the world that would be, I had faith in God's power! Well last Monday we received the most miraculous text of all time. We have been teaching a man by the name of Donald for about two weeks and on Monday he texted us asking if he could get baptized on Saturday!! He said that in order to get closer to God he feels he needs to be cleansed of his prior sins through a proper baptism. He said that he has faith in our ability to do this! Elder Jones and I were beside ourselves and have praised God since. We taught him the next night! After receiving that phenomenal text on Monday, we had dinner with a part member family from the Raleigh Spanish ward that I worked with for quite some time. They had been progressing super well, but have recently fallen out of the swing of things. Hopefully we were able to inspire them to come back and reignite the flames of their faith! After having dinner with them, we went to the mission office to prepare for a few meetings! Elder Jones and I planned a few instructions and we both felt pretty excited about them. The first meeting took place on Tuesday with all of the new missionaries being trained in the northern half of the mission. We call the meeting first transfer training, pretty fitting right? The Spirit was so powerful!! Many simple truths were taught and key principles were shared that will bless these new missionaries and sustain them throughout their missions if they apply what they heard. I know that the Spirit was the teacher that day as I too was taught and counseled by its influence. Following the meeting we had a fantastic lesson with Donald! We taught him about the gospel of Jesus Christ, including faith in Jesus Christ, repentance, baptism, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, and enduring to the end. We also taught him about a few commandments and he was not only on board with everything we shared, but he loves the church! He commented that he has always believed the things that we teach, he just never knew there was a church that preached them! The next morning we had our second first transfer training meeting down in Fayetteville for the southern half of the mission! We had planned on driving down the night before, but felt prompted to stay the night in Raleigh so we ended up waking up at 4:30 Wednesday morning! Haha it was awesome! I have learned that following the Spirit is worth any sacrifice required of us. We must pay the price, even when we don't understand why. I know waking up at 4:30 is a silly example of this, but the principle here is eternal and it will evoke the very powers of heaven. Our meeting on Wednesday was also very inspiring. I love each opportunity we have to interact with, learn from, and serve these missionaries. What great lives of devotion they are living and what great examples they are to me of that. We drove back to Raleigh after the meeting and had a baptismal interview planned with Donald! To our surprise, he didn't show up! We called him and texted him, but couldn't get a hold of him. Finally a few days later we got in touch with him and discovered a few hidden concerns. We addressed those concerns and he is once again excited to be baptized! Unfortunately however, that baptism will need to be pushed back a few weeks in order to help him be more prepared. I did not after all get to see a baptism my final week in the mission, but as I have reflected on this experience, I am actually very grateful for the way things played out. My deepest desire is to rely on the Lord. How easy is it to rely on Him when everything is going perfectly well? When everything happens according to plan? I desire to rely on the Lord regardless of reward. I am grateful that we didn't baptize because this gives me an opportunity to prove my faithfulness to God. I will not waver nor get discouraged, but rather my joy increases and my gratitude flourishes! The gospel is still true and God is still good. My service to him is never conditional upon my ability to recognize blessings. Thursday was a wonderful day as we went on exchanges with the Durham Zone Leaders! I was blessed to bring Elder Barlow back to Falls Lake for the day, he is an all-star for sure. We had a great time!! We first visited Rich and did our best to lift his spirits. After not having been able to get in touch with him all transfer, it was a blessing to sit down with him and show him that somebody cares. We listened to him intently, expressed our love and encouragement, and testified of the enriching power of the gospel. We invited him to come to church with us to receive that power and for the first time in two months, he did! I was especially grateful to see a smile on his face throughout it. After visiting Rich, Elder Barlow and I stopped by the Borrero family and taught Jay about the Priesthood! We prepared him to receive it and today in church, I had the sacred honor of conferring it upon him. I know it will change his life if he lets it! Elder Barlow and I also taught Yuliya and while we desired to bring down the powers of heaven and convince her right there and then to be baptized, it just didn't happen. And yet, that was okay! We both felt peace concerning her progression; we felt a confirmation that we have done all we can; we have done our part. Now it is up to her! I know she will join the church and be sealed to her family someday. I even believe that day will be soon! Our last stop of the night was to the Rathavongsa home. Ryan, Brandon, and Dylan are staying strong! They are continuing to read the scriptures, say their prayers, and come to church! I am so proud of them for that is how we stay on the strait and narrow path! The temple should also play an important and frequent role in our lives. Elder Jones and I had the privilege of attending the temple Friday morning with all of the other departing missionaries. It was such an enriching experience. We felt spiritually recharged for sure! The remainder of the day was also very satisfying as we taught Nathan and went tracting! Nathan is progressing very nicely! His faith in Christ continues to build and he wants to be baptized! We set a date with him and as part of his commitment, invited him to come to church. We had invited him many many times before, but this time he came! He loved it too!! Just like I love tracting! Sadly we didn't have any time to tract on Saturday due to our all day transfer meeting with President James. We got to the mission home around nine in the morning and didn't leave until about ten at night! The Spirit was hard at work helping us know in what areas and with whom these missionaries need to serve. All of us are very excited to watch this new transfer play out, we have faith in the changes made! Speaking of faith, today was one of the most faith-inspiring days of my life. As many of you know, Elder Bednar is currently in North Carolina doing a young adult broadcast for the whole world! Him being my favorite apostle, I was really hoping I could take an investigator and meet him! To my disappointment however, all missionaries were not invited to come. Well this morning as our Sacrament Meeting began, everyone began to stand up. I joined the crowd to see what was going on and to my astonishment, Elder Bednar and his lovely wife walked onto the stand!! They took their seats and so did we. Except I about fell out of mine! I couldn't believe what I was seeing! Today I had the honor of learning from an apostle of the Lord. My Spirit was touched and changed forever as I listened to both his words and the words of Sister Bednar. Sister Bednar made us a very special promise before Elder Bednar spoke. She said, "If you apply what Elder Bednar teaches today, you will go home feeling refreshed, honored, and strengthened. You will feel like you can do this no matter what you are called to face." I physically heard and understood what she had said, but spiritually was being promised something that I was in need of. To the general audience, she promised they would go home from church feeling refreshed, but to me personally and individually, she promised hope, gratitude, and strength as I return home from my mission. Elder Bednar then spoke of the Spirit and the way that it teaches and touches. He said that we should pay attention not to the things that are said, but to the things that are not said; for that is the voice of the Spirit. If we listen with our spiritual ears, then what we hear will be just for us. I heard Sister Bednar personally promise me strength as I return home from my mission. I felt in the moment that she had said that just for me, but what I was actually hearing was the Spirit's voice. Elder Bednar also taught of the need for continued revelation! He said that we learn line upon line, precept upon precept. If at any point we feel we have received enough, than what we have received will be taken from us. I now know and do believe as confirmed to me by an apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ and His Holy Spirit that my mission ending does not have to bring an end to my spiritual growth. I will continue to learn, I will continue to progress. Yes I am saddened to leave all that I have so deeply come to love, but my first love has always been and will always be the Lord. And I will never leave Him. I had the opportunity to shake Elder Bednar's hand after the meeting and as I did so, I felt a confirming witness. I know he is called of God. I stand in awe that God loved me enough to send Elder Bednar, one of his apostles, directly to me to brighten my hope and set the tone for my future. I am excited for the opportunity I will have back home to apply the things I have learned out here. My testimony has grown in so many ways! I know that God answers prayers, I know he puts us on the path that is best for us and for our salvation. I know the Book of Mormon to be a true record written by ancient prophets. It testifies of Christ and leads us to him. There is a power when we sup from it daily. I know this church to be the restored church of Christ for Joseph did see God the Father and our Savior. They did call him to be a prophet and the church has been restored. I know that Jesus Christ himself stands at the head of it. He directs its affairs. I know he lives. He is the Christ. The only way to find lasting happiness, perfect peace, and heavenly hope in life are through him. I have been changed by my service to him. I know that hard work and exact obedience are the keys to success in building the kingdom of God. He loves us and He is with us; he sends his Spirit to guide us, comfort us, teach us, and sanctify us. And if we love Him, we will serve happily. These really have been the best two years of my entire life. And although they are coming to a close, I am no longer in despair for the future but have hope in it! I rejoice in it. Because I know that with God, I can do all things.

Called to serve,
Elder Shearer